CAMPUS LIFE EXPERIENCE

Photo courtesy of Michael Mumpasoi 

 This was it. At times there are decisions that just need to be reached in the middle of a hard dillema. Usually, I am reckless at handling such strong thoughts since they seem to scramble for a position in my mind. God granted me a special gift of critical thinking, however things had fallen out of hands this time.

I know. No, I don't know. I think this is foreign to me. Ever since I came across her, I was too blind to see her strikes direct on my face. She had covered up thickly her shadow next to me and I walked my world with her.

I did all I could and grasped stinging feelings for her however I always loose it at the home strait. I was the smartest student in Journalism class and had always persuaded my buddies to walk away from falling in love which I equivaled it with disability.

"Mike, don't dare think that I will walk away just because you are acting blind to my feelings." She would say. Her words always run down to my knees and I would feel weak. I am not certain if putting down this will make me stronger to resist her.

Mercy,(let's name her Mercy ( I am not going to reveal her real name) 

Close to four days following her confrontation, she kept herself away from me and spoke no word to me. She seems feeble. Her ever glowing cheeks turned red. Her eyes kept luminance and would fire up hell out of you. Her dress always fitted her perfectly.

It occurred that the lecturer set us into learning groups. Fortune brought us together. Group members decided to make her group leader and she was supposed to give directions and check on our progress. I was babbling. My minds switched off. However Mercy was the only one who noticed. So she gave me a chance to calm myself. I did it. Everybody nodded, only Mercy didn't.

I was waiting for her to shout  "Point of correction" but she didn't.

We  compiled the group's report and I had a huge contribution into it. I  kept reminding myself, It's my career. Yes, I need to prioritize this it.

Okay, seems like my history of keeping girls away was being swapped away.As soon as we   finished group discussion, I returned to my issues and find a new way to tackle it.

On a Friday afternoon, I reached out to Mercy and asked her to go out for a drink at mess, she agreed.

We moved out to our tables and ordered soft drinks. We were quite. My glass was halfway down, hers was quarterly up. I was always enticed to slug down the reminder at the glassy blink. Her womanly was looking fixedly on me.

I wished to inform her this was supposed to be a friends zone. That we had sightlessly fallen in love with each other without considering that school/education was paining us and it demanded total focus on it. I wanted to apologize about it, it was my fault.

"Mercy, I know of what had fallen between us and it's wise we should handle it before it falls out of our hands."

"Mike don't you ever tell anybody we've ever fallen in love with you , neither do  you tell them we know each other." She grasped her handbag and moved away.

Monday morning , we all proceeded to our respective groups. Tension between us became almost unbearable. Immediately after class, I gained some courage and cornered her before she left for home. She turned around when I held her hand and looked fixedly on my face.

"I will not complain again. I'll free you to the freedom you've been looking for. " She told me.

She turned and left me.  I stood fixedly while my heart turns to sore.

"Wait , Mercy." I beckoned as she leaves however, she was reluctant. She was crying.I felt bad.

"I apologize."

All the boys I had advised not to fall in love, should they have come across me begging , I am sure they would have stoned me to death.

"That is pity. Don't call it love. If you truly mean it then please come to me. " She told me as she runs down the stairs.

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Let's leave the rest for another day 😁😁